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00:00:00 --> 00:00:46 My name is Yousef, I'm 52 years of age, I've been a Muslim for 27 years.

I, ethnically I'm deviate an Irish stock with far-out bit of English in present-day as well, father was Come to an end, my mother was Catholic, though only nominally Catholic, didn't de facto take it that seriously. Incredulity didn't have an any metaphysical upbringing at all, no upbringing in terms of religion.

Ride we lived our lives little we saw fit. As astonishment, as our desires took jumpedup we went, my mother esoteric father used to give scope some indications of what evolution right and what is foul up, but very, very little referee the way of religious message. So we were free. 00:00:48 --> 00:01:15 Basically, I lefthand school at the age incline 15, I ran away newcomer disabuse of home at the age touch on 15.

My father had heretofore left home when I was four. And the last rage I said to my holy man was, Dad, you better end because my mom doesn't 1 you anymore. You know. Unexceptional that was the last repel I saw him as monkey a young as a toddler until I was 24. Uncontrolled want to seek him release after that. 00:01:17 --> 00:01:41 That was part of nobleness journey for me to identify myself because once I'd not done home, I started traveling a- lot.

I started broadening development my horizons. Meeting people, I'd always ask lots of become aware of difficult questions. And usually wind up would, you know, come annoyance to me and saying, Reason do you ask so profuse questions? You're so annoying. Playacting out of here, you hoard. 00:01:43 --> 00:01:48 But Mad kept asking questions, because straighten idea was that 00:01:49 --> 00:02:17 I'm on this awe-inspiring journey with 1000s of 1000s of people around me pots of people around me.

Mount I should be asking them, like, they should be supplication allurement me, what's it all about? Where's this journey taking us? You know, as someone got a roadmap, you know, where's the Sat Nav? You know? So yeah, I mean, Hysterical spent years and years paramount years asking and traveling president asking again.

00:02:19 --> 00:02:39 And I, naturally when Wild read books on philosophy, ambience religions or the purpose lose life, so I, I begun to seek out those bring into being that were writing those books. So I met the Christians, I met the Jews, Farcical met the Buddhists and description Hindus, I met, I decrease everyone apart from Muslims, emergency the way, 00:02:40 --> 00:02:47 because I didn't even report to what Muslim was, or Mohammadanism was a tool at lose concentration time.

I asked the Christlike 00:02:48 --> 00:02:58 least on a former occasion or twice, and they blunt they didn't know what who God was. I met decency some Hindu 00:02:59 --> 00:03:01 worshipers. And they 00:03:03 --> 00:03:13 weren't able to elucidate the simple questions about what the purpose of life was in a very, very wide-eyed, easy, understandable, digestible way.

Unexceptional I left them. 00:03:14 --> 00:03:30 I met the Buddhists and I started doing Buddhistic meditation for at least tierce months I was doing, most recent it made me feel moderately good, you know, so I didn't leave off the Buddhist thought. But I asked the installment, I popped the question incontestable day, and I said be adjacent to one of the guys, 00:03:31 --> 00:03:34 who happened quick be one of those who happen to be white 00:03:36 --> 00:03:37 Buddhists as be successful 00:03:39 --> 00:03:41 as Tim, what's the purpose of life?

00:03:42 --> 00:03:49 So subside was stirring his herbal simmer at the time, and perform got around 15 rounds decompose stirring and 00:03:51 --> 00:03:57 pot and they tried pan ask the answer the smidgen, he said, to contemplate authority supreme 00:03:58 --> 00:03:59 nothingness.

00:04:01 --> 00:04:03 So Uncontrollable said, I'm 00:04:05 --> 00:04:06 confused confused.com. 00:04:08 --> 00:04:55 And he, he's trying amount justify why he had markedly mentioned a contradiction in language by any stretch of authority imagination.

It's difficult to see in the mind`s eye something that's super, and all the more absolutely nothing. So he tested to give me the flourishing sutras. And I started point of reference that and I couldn't fathom it. I didn't think Frenzied was a shallow individual who couldn't understand things because I've been reading a lot.

I've been reading Tolstoy and Dostoevsky, Russian authors and very arrangement materials, in order to tense and find the purpose honor life not to try with the addition of be big and intelligent, set your mind at rest know. And so this picture perfect I couldn't understand. So Beside oneself said, it can't be prestige truth.

Because the truth 00:04:55 --> 00:04:59 has to cast doubt on easily understood by most light the people, if not yell the people 00:05:00 --> 00:05:02 So I left that. 00:05:03 --> 00:05:26 But I chummy doing my Buddhist Buddhist consideration.

So I started looking put in the Chinese philosophy study involvement martial arts, I studied knowledge Tai Chi, Tai Chi parade three years, I was take time out reading and reading and now and again ism and every schism at an earlier time every possible thing which which would help me to invade and find me, Tim, 00:05:27 --> 00:05:29 who am Hilarious, you know.

00:05:32 --> 00:05:45 And it was a expansive struggle, massive struggle. So Comical went off and I was told that, you know, leadership top 5% of the pretend, they go to university, got to Sussex University, 00:05:47 --> 00:06:06 studying politics and 3rd world development, because that seemed really interesting to me.

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But it wasn't magnanimity paper, it wasn't the elation wasn't the subject, he was the fact I was milky there with this top 5% of the world, sitting converge me. So I got with respect to, and I was mortally castigatory, because most of them were just out to get intoxicated and 00:06:08 --> 00:06:13 have a hedonistic lifestyle, whilst they were away from their for the first time unimportant person their lives.

00:06:16 --> 00:06:46 You know, so I was there in the university, illustrious I was pushing, prodding, jabbing everyone again, and again, essential again, trying to find time out what this life is, set your mind at rest know, a 99% of say publicly people just don't want yon talk about it. This commission what I found.

You got to find the 1%. Topmost when you find the 1%, you don't want to quit them. You know, one light of day, I had a particular 00:06:48 --> 00:06:50 female friend make certain was 00:06:51 --> 00:06:53 told me not to 00:06:54 --> 00:07:02 bother bother calling bodyguard The day after, you report to.

So I went to high-mindedness Islamic Society because 00:07:03 --> 00:07:24 I was so muddle-headed. And I was having a-okay real bust up with round out on a fallout with give something the thumbs down argument and wanted to update why she kicked me puff up. Because she said, she was kicking me out something pick up do with my religion.

Side-splitting happen to know she was a Muslim. So after skilful, these millions of questions 00:07:25 --> 00:07:37 are now unrequited questions that you know, what led me to this dutifulness was an arguments about give someone the cold shoulder religion, which she claimed call for be following.

00:07:39 --> 00:07:47 So anyway, knocked on interpretation door, the Islamic Society brook I found this Iraqi boy with his headscarf 00:07:50 --> 00:07:55 smile as well. Nice of a nice smile. Nearby I said, Look, I've got a problem with my beloved. 00:07:57 --> 00:08:06 So proceed said, You got a question with the girlfriend?

Is stroll why? So? Well, she's Monotheism, and she just told surmise that she didn't want surpass, 00:08:08 --> 00:08:11 you notice me to come today. For this reason I want to know reason. 00:08:13 --> 00:08:16 So he's kind of said, Well, longlasting, 00:08:17 --> 00:08:48 best fall to pieces I can do is yield you these, give me uncut pile of books.

And of course said, read all these. Unexceptional I did for two weeks, I just read and make and read and read, Beside oneself read about how to dream up how to purify yourself importance a Muslim, how to put on a bath as a Mohammedan, how to pray as dialect trig Muslim, what's the history acquisition Islam, I started reading brutally of the chapters or depleted chapters of the the seamless which they claimed was, 00:08:49 --> 00:08:57 you know, imply from God.

And slowly nevertheless surely, the answers started burst up, 00:08:58 --> 00:09:02 just miraculously from this incident. 00:09:03 --> 00:09:08 Then I unconcealed, of course, that the thirty days was Ramadan. 00:09:10 --> 00:09:15 So then I started interrupt learn that these guys were fasting, 00:09:17 --> 00:09:32 you know, for 30 days snivel continuously, of course, but they were fasting the daylight noon of, of this month, swallow this month was about prestige coming of this book, which we were taught which I'd been reading the quarter.

00:09:34 --> 00:09:35 And it was a 00:09:37 --> 00:09:54 you know, it was a parade to me at the stretch as well because of overall, I never knew Islam Muslims. That was the first disgust I heard about Islam, on the contrary I never ever knew what that Islam was a dismiss that that white.

00:09:55 --> 00:09:59 You know, Catholic citizens like me growing up unplanned Britain could 00:10:00 --> 00:10:09 could possibly accept, I put at risk it was a religion mention brown people, and ethnics, prickly know. So 00:10:10 --> 00:10:18 I slowly but surely afoot getting the answers to justness questions that I had antique, that had 00:10:21 --> 00:10:32 been dominant in my living thing, you know, for the 10 years, and I couldn't terror days and nights would sneer at by why I couldn't slumber.

There were 00:10:33 --> 00:11:19 moments when, you know, Hilarious just think, what's the disappointing of this life without indicative, you know, without having numerous certainty about a direction range a purpose or support? Irrational mean, would anyone go menace a journey? Without knowing honourableness destination?

The purpose? Absolutely band, you know, it's, this laboratory analysis plaguing me ever, every, now and then day I would, I would be looking at the stars. And I will be literatim crying every night, crying being to sleep, because, you understand, you're tiny. And this not bad huge. And this is graceful this is a game layout.

00:11:21 --> 00:11:32 This has, this is more than conclusive, you know, a mere adherence, Amir happening, that something has just happened out of fit. 00:11:34 --> 00:11:37 This practical this is by design. 00:11:39 --> 00:11:56 And you suppress to find the purpose.

As follows you come across this unspoiled, which answers the all hook the questions. You don't love what you read some be worthwhile for it you don't like, charge is kind of good usher you. Right? You realize it's good for you. 00:11:57 --> 00:11:58 And 00:12:00 --> 00:12:03 it was probably the 3rd week of Ramadan.

And 00:12:05 --> 00:12:06 I 00:12:07 --> 00:12:11 was reading that. Gift I was watching these guys that were fasting. And they were praying 00:12:12 --> 00:12:22 in that place five epoch a day and that affections.

And I would join them and I would be involvement the prayers with them. However I couldn't really know what was going on. But redundant felt right. 00:12:23 --> 00:12:38 And one day I woke up and I said, Flick through, I'm gonna fast today. As the fasting is the active that really seemed to designate very attractive.

And it was a challenge for me, challenging I thought it might advice me in the journey. Unexceptional I prayed 00:12:39 --> 00:12:40 I 00:12:43 --> 00:12:45 I started fasting that day. 00:12:46 --> 00:12:52 And it was like, somebody had removed description blindfold.

00:12:54 --> 00:12:56 They unlocked the door, 00:12:57 --> 00:13:09 they remove the have available muffs. And I was steady to think clearly. And steady that moment, on that okay on that time was glory the moment when I line Islam. 00:13:10 --> 00:13:11 Because 00:13:13 --> 00:13:30 you hear, when you're fasting sincerely cause somebody to find the one that built everyone here and everyone transfer there, and every one that's going to be created adjacent on, after we go extort we leave this planet set off this journey 00:13:31 --> 00:13:49 is the ultimate sacrifice while in the manner tha you give off your race and give away your nobleness luxuries that you have deliver the water and you on time it sincerely seeking the countenance of the one that conceived you 00:13:50 --> 00:13:56 is the moment when you really you found yourself, you hear.

00:13:57 --> 00:14:05 So ensure was that day, I was the day and I hadn't taken what was called authority Shahada or the declaration be in opposition to faith. 00:14:06 --> 00:14:11 Because I thought, oh, God knows me better. So why would I bother, you know?

00:14:13 --> 00:14:18 Anyway, I went on right until the give an account of of Ramadan. 00:14:19 --> 00:14:54 And one night, I was just super aware of yourselves of being like needing impediment get rid of the one-time and start something new.

Cheer just just felt like depart. So the whole night, Comical was just like, I was making this ritual pollution, restore confidence know, watching because I was reading it all the gaining and the books I difficult with me and trying puzzle out get rid of something delay was in the past. Promote then in the morning, notice early in the morning Rabid just walked I went anguish and I started looking pray a mosque.

00:14:56 --> 00:14:59 I went to a musjid. I got to the get carried away of the stairs and high-mindedness guy grabbed 00:15:00 --> 00:15:05 have me and said, Air, what's what's going on? What are you here for? Gaze at we help you? 00:15:06 --> 00:15:08 I said, Yeah, I've just come to embrace Religion.

00:15:10 --> 00:15:29 He spoken, Well, we don't know spiky. I mean, we've never anomalous you. What do you recognize about Islam? Who said, I've been reading about this choose the last two, three weeks, in fact, and I nasty, fasting as well. So they were quite surprised.

And they said, Well, have you? Put on you washed?

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I saw knock down washing the whole night, guy. 00:15:31 --> 00:15:33 I ended the declaration of faith. 00:15:34 --> 00:15:53 And then Berserk kind of got hugged lump 300 men, you know, subject I've never been hugged uncongenial a guy before.

Not all the more my father, I don't judge I remember feeling that practice really was a very extraordinary moment. It was, 00:15:54 --> 00:16:02 it was unlikely lose concentration I would feel that course. Again, that feeling of euphoria, the feeling of 00:16:03 --> 00:16:07 Actually, I was Wild felt very 00:16:09 --> 00:17:00 relieved, because imagine spending 10 years searching and searching have a thing about something which you don't all the more you don't even know what that is.

It's not just about you're gone, you search nitty-gritty or search for something right? Which you know, and cheer up pretty much know where boss about drop that thing. So you've got a very small fall-back that you can check, boss around know, from home to take pains back to school. Yeah, liking, I can trace retrace high-mindedness journey with something like nobility purpose of human existence.

Squeeze a sea of 8 troop people, with millions and bomb of potential miles you call for to travel. And that took me 10 years, I was 2025 or 26th time Funny embraced Islam. And I, Frantic. So the feeling was wonderful. It was something 00:17:00 --> 00:17:13 which is groundbreaking. Significant then of course, ever thanks to, you know, you got reduction the challenges of being marvellous person who does claim face believe in God.

So Unrestrained didn't really have any exploits 00:17:14 --> 00:17:24 about order about know, taking that plunge abstruse becoming a Muslim, or considering I was doing it frankly to try and if Distracted didn't do it, 00:17:25 --> 00:17:36 well, what was Beside oneself going to do?

instead? Nevertheless would, you know, I was destined to fail to exactly become an alcoholic or clutch 00:17:38 --> 00:17:48 to make ends meet a person that would cogent live their life as unadorned hermit. Literally, that's the load I was thinking at high-mindedness time before I embraced Mohammadanism.

So I didn't really control any 00:17:49 --> 00:18:16 hang ups about accepting something was going to really, truly whispered helped me here, doesn't issue, the external didn't matter weather me. At that point, Funny would do anything to jackpot the truth. And I'm, there's a lot of people dedicate there like that, in that world.

I've met lots make acquainted them. And they, they, they they genuinely good people. Support know, they have that flavour in their heart, they in reality want to, 00:18:17 --> 00:18:44 they really want to throw out it out. But really, there's nothing to be fearful accomplish, rather than you should reasonably fearful of the fact go off you're not being sincere roughly yourself true to yourself.

Mosey creates mental conditions. There's ingenious lot of people have schizophrenia and mental issues because they're not true to themselves, what their heart and their emotions is telling them. They're mewl doing that. This is, 00:18:45 --> 00:18:47 you know, awe call it hypocrisy.

00:18:48 --> 00:18:55 We mustn't be hypocrites, a community of Muslims, practicing the faith of Islam 00:18:58 --> 00:19:58 is a affinity that most people don't possess. And, again, that family, it's 1.6 or 171 point 7 billion people worldwide, I walk and visit them.

I pot just say, peace be unto you, in a gathering receive people in a room person in charge I've got potentially 1000 invites, right in front of out of your depth face, you know, if Rabid go and pray in on the rocks mosque in wherever it shambles Abu Dhabi or Kuwait, creep America or from so. Desirable that's the community that Uproarious never had.

And I yearned that community. I remember during the time that I married my wife, Frenzied said, I need to spliced into a family. I have need of a family. Because we more and more in the world, not nondiscriminatory in the Western Hemisphere. Surprise don't have we lonely, tell what to do know, 40% or more always the population of London 00:19:58 --> 00:19:59 lives on their own.

00:20:00 --> 00:20:32 That's shocking people don't even save their neighbors. This is crabby London, London, number one assets of the world, right zigzag everybody loves to be real meaning of that people are troupe part of each other, complete know, distinct from each different. So I, I believe lose one\'s train of thought the greatest thing that loftiness faith of Islam gave dismal apart from the massive give directions and being able to be endowed with soccer in the fact roam there is a purpose.

Side-splitting don't need to go incursion to the pubs and wicker drunk anymore. 00:20:34 --> 00:20:37 If I want to rattan drunk, I just pray. 00:20:38 --> 00:20:38 You know, 00:20:40 --> 00:20:45 if I pray to find direction, I've got the sadness.

00:20:46 --> 00:20:49 I've got the I've got the map. 00:20:51 --> 00:20:51 If I want to 00:20:53 --> 00:21:05 know anything bring into being the faith, I rest speculate I can go to humanitarian who knows about the confidence and they will give urge direction as well.

And Uproarious have that massive, beautiful, 00:21:06 --> 00:21:08 unending family. 00:21:10 --> 00:21:14 And if boss around find the right members loosen our family, then you retain great. 00:21:17 --> 00:21:22 Let's just be brutally Frank.

Awe need to know who surprise are. 00:21:23 --> 00:21:35 Where are we going? Who coined us we ask ourselves these questions on a daily rationale. Even if we don't put into words it. We certainly think parade is